Why I've Been MIA

Happy Wednesday everybody!!

I know it's been a while since I've posted on my blog and I went from posting at least three times a week to this being my second post {thus far} of the entire month of August.

I know that I truly don't owe an explanation to anybody BUT considering that my life is primarily based around social media and my blogging these days, I figured I would fill y'all in... It's the least I can {probably} do.

I know that sooooo many of y'all think my life is just "perfect" because I get DMs from people {who I don't know} all time time asking me how I get to do so much: travel, hang out with friends, workout tons, create content, etc. On the other hand, I want y'all to know that I am just sharing the bits and pieces of my life I want y'all to know about. Social media does not truly display the depths of ANYBODY'S life... Including mine.

Therefore -- I wanted to fill you in on why I have been MIA.

{PS: I am not writing this blog post because I want sympathy or I want y'all to feel bad for me... I just want to be real // vulnerable with y'all}

Since I have moved back home {yes, I live with my parents and I'm almost 24}, it has been a bumpy ride. Sure, I have had lots of ups BUT I have also had lots of downs. Especially in the last two months I feel like my heart, mind, and soul have been played with and that's just not right or fair to anybody. I'm not going to go into great detail about what all has happened to me; HOWEVER, there are some very sh*tty people who I have unfortunately associated myself with and as a result I hold so much resentment toward myself.

Because of this I have not only felt down on myself; I have been looking at myself in a negative light and shaming myself AND I feel as though I have lost my creative touch... Basically, I lost my spark.

I truly thought about quitting all the instagramming and blogging... All the photos I have been posting on my Instagram feed {other than the ones in Palm Springs and San Diego which were required by the companies I worked with and I was on a timeline for}, are old and were taken over a month ago... It wasn't until yesterday that I felt like I could produce some quality content {even though its again for two companies that I'm on a timeline for}.

To keep it short and sweet -- I no longer speak to two of my best guy friends {ps: they're not the people who I was talking about associating myself with} whom I have known extremely long {one because he got a girlfriend and one due to other reasons} and I removed myself from ALL dating apps {ps: I was never on Tinder so I don't know why I had a couple people message me on instagram saying they found my Tinder}... To be honest, I was on dating apps because I have heard so many success stories from my friends and even some family members. The last wedding I went to {the one in San Diego}, I even had my cousins telling me to get on them; however, I don't think people realize how dang picky I am {unless you TRULY know me}. I was just on dating apps to see who was in the area and to see who I could potentially bump into... Not to actually use them for dating purposes...

Based on those two statements above though, guys are OUT of the picture. I am now focusing 112% on myself and my wellbeing. I have been working out now twice a day {instead of once} and I have been eating a lot healthier and I am starting to see some results ever so slightly {wahooooo}.

I feel WAYYYYYY happier now!!

Like I basically said above, I am starting to feel creative again {I mean, check out that graphic design above lol}; THEREFOR, I want to start up my lil business again {once I return from New York} so slide in the DMs if you want something!!

Moral of this post: I have been MIA because I have unfortunately been toyed with and I have lost touch with myself and my creativity; HOWEVER, I AM BACK BABYYYY!!

I have some exciting collaborations coming up, I have some fun vlogs that you won't want to miss {and those that you have are down below if you keep scrolling}, I have a promo code for something y'all will want that I will post about on Friday, etc.